How One Man Became Confident, Relaxed, and Happy After 11 Years of Crippling Depression – Dominate Depression
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Well.. I was struggling with depression and anxiety. Not just feeling down or “sad.” no, this was the severe “I wish I had the energy to kill myself”, type of depression and anxiety.
The type of spiraling out of control where every thought is racing and you can just give up on falling asleep.
My anxiety, insomnia, and depression destroyed my self esteem, demolished my self worth, and left me living like a zombie that hoped to just finish one more day.
These days it can be hard to go back. To remember what it was like to be in that state of mind. See the deep pain in my eyes that repulsed everyone away from me…
I suffered from depression for 11 years. In case you don’t already know my story, I started getting depressed symptoms when I was a child. I went through my entire adolescence and young adulthood in pain and feeling out of place.
On top of my already existing depression my brother had passed away and I had one friend that was close to me die years later.
In the midst of my anguish I decided that if I didn’t fix my depression in one year I would take my life. I signed the note and made an honest agreement with myself.
I was at the final straw. I no longer was just contemplating suicide… I was literally going to kill myself if nothing changed.
I yearned for those brief moments I knew in the past when I was confident, excited, and relaxed… But I reached my breaking point when I was completely worn down, stressed, anxious, and felt absolutely no pleasure from anything…
The first thing I tried with my new “suicide agreement” was prescription medication. That lead to a path of dependency, worsened problems, and increased anxiety and sleeping problems.
I finally got off my antidepressant and was desperate to try anything. I had nothing to lose. I tried every supplement, approach, and guideline out there.
I was a runaway train and all I wanted in the world was to wake up feeling refreshed. Have a moment where my mind wasn’t racing out of control. To go to a party and be able to simply enjoy being with interesting people.
Yet I believed that if I just kept trying to change my thoughts, kept trying to improve my sleep hygiene, and kept simply existing that somehow these problems would eventually fade away.
Every time I would read a new book, my hopes would soar. I would think that I had finally found the solution to my anxiety, depression, and insomnia.
But I would wake up after another restless 3 hour sleep, dreading the day ahead of me, and dragging my feet to simply survive.
I went form therapist to therapist. I eventually even tried drugs. I went to support groups. I thought “positive” all day.
Some things would work for a few days, but the depression would always come back. I’d have a night or two where I could confidently talk to people, but eventually I would relapse into anxiety and nervousness.
For most people suffering from depression, this is the story of their lives. Some people do go their entire lives this way.
They try one thing after another until they eventually give up and believe that for some reason that is who they are as people.
About 6 months after I had made my initial one year agreement to fix myself or die, I stumbled into my local book shop.
I picked up random books for fixing mood disorders and started reading about nutritional deficiencies.
I discovered that depression isn’t all about “positive” thinking and having an antidepressant deficiency. It is actually caused by imbalances that occur in your body due to a poor diet, a poor lifestyle, and deficiencies in nutrients.
When I first read these books in the store, I was skeptical about just changing my diet and taking a few “natural” supplements and having it fix my crippling suicidal depression.
Sometimes I would take a supplement and find real relief for a few days. That kept my motivation unbelievably high.
True anxiety and insomnia is not caused by you not being able to control your thoughts. True depression is not because you are a weak person inside.
Not being able to sleep at night, being nervous in every social situation, and feeling like complete crap is caused by missing nutrients in your body!
Feeling like pure crap can be the result of food allergies. It can be the result of eating foods that spike your blood sugar and the resulting crash later in the day. It can be the result of not supplying your brain, which is made mostly of fatty acids, with enough dietary fat in your diet.
The good news is your body is an amazing thing. It can heal itself. Your brain can mold and change.
Your body can heal itself from depression. In fact, that is its natural state! It just simply can’t get there without the proper nutrients, the proper building blocks, to do the job it naturally wants to do.
If we aren’t getting enough critical vitamins and minerals but we aren’t so deficient we are going to DIE, what happens in between?
Every doctor out there talks to your for 5 minutes and prescribes you a strong pill with unknown long-term side effects.
Every mainstream medication is marketed to you and the medical system to increase their profits… not YOUR success.
I actually had a job at a clinical research facility that tested pharmaceutical drugs. Trust me. These companies don’t actually WANT you to get better – otherwise they wouldn’t make any more money having your come back every month for your prescription!
None of these approaches ever actually really cure… Read more…
